Hmm, maybe next time I should bring my tent over here. Would it be too weird if I spend my day sleeping by the bay?
People with anxiety can be good to have around in an emergency. Since anxious people are often waiting for something to go wrong, they’re also more vigilant about monitoring their surroundings. This makes them faster at detecting and reacting to threats, and they’re much more likely to warn others without delay. Source
“If you stopped yourself every single time you were about to say, ‘I have to’ and changed it to ‘I get to,’ it might change your entire experience.”— Kristin Armstrong
Since yesterday, I have been working in an auto mode. Like, I just do all the typing and reading and note-taking, but it didn’t really get into my head. Actually, for most of it I don’t really think i know what it is about.
I am my most precious thing.
So, I think I am going to start writing here again. Remember I said my friend is getting married? It’s going to be in a few months, and (to be frank) I have been abandoned since few months already. Sob.
So, case in point is I no longer have someone (readily) to talk to, to ramble things and rant, and many other things. Which is why, until I get another friend of the same capacity (will I?), seems like this is the go-to-medium for those matters mentioned above.
For the past few weeks, I’ve been having an immense emotional ‘breakdown’. First of all, it’s because of a TV drama. It’s normal - I am usually affected by those anyway - but this is the first time it is caused by a Malay drama.
But then, something bigger happened. My friend, my confidante is going to get married soon. It is not something certain, they have never even discussed it properly anyway, but the relationship this time is way different and striking that we both can feel it going that way - means it will happen sooner or later.
And I am deeply affected. Shocked. It is changing the course of my life.
kata tak mampu lagi berbicara
kerana yang ada hanya rasa
sukar diterjemah ke mata pena
